eoys finally ovr le.
but i not veh happy larhs.
i did some reflections on my way home.
i always do that de larhs,
when im alone.
then i thought about alot of things.
then realised i got alot of things to tell
my family and friends.
and what i feel larhs.
this is going to be veh emo larhs.
i know i usually dont say all this
kinda things de.
but a blog is for me to rant mahhs.
so yeah...
MYPARENTS(:i understand that you all feel
that im independent enough le,
so you all always dont care about me larhs.
thanks for trusting me(:
im sorry if i disappoint you all this year.
i know my results deprove alot.
i know you all will think i nvr study.
i admit im slack larhs.
but i really study veh hard for eoys.
zhen de.
but its just that i nvr tell you all i
go library to study everyday.
so i dont blame you all larhs.
for thinking that i dont study.
and i know mummy, your veh stressed.
i understand.
i know i always 'ap' you when
you bombard me with psle stuff
the moment i reach home.
i know your worried and all.
but sometimes im really tired.
and i already forgot alot of stuff le.
so im really sry.
and dont wry.
im veh guai.
im not what you think im(:
SONJIA(:i srsly think your a great jnr(:the bestest i can have.
im really thankful that i have such
a nice jnr(:
thanks so much for always listening
to me, cheering me up,
gaying with me, absorbing all my crap,
pei-ing me everytime etc.
i really appreciate it.
zhen de.
im sry if everytime i dont say much
when your low and all.
cuz sometimes i really dont know
what to say.
i know i aint good at words larhs.
so everytime i will always
say the same old things,
like cheer up larhs that kinda stuff larhs.
but i really mean it okayys.
cuz i also dont wanna see my jnr sad.
but sometimes i really dont know what
else to say.
cuz i know sometimes, by saying cheer up larhs
srsly wont help lorhs.
zong zi ne, im veh grateful to what you
have done for me(:
really.
THANKS :D
JESSLYN<33i know you nowadays not veh happy.
cuz got so many stuff happened.
im sry im not of much help.
i see you like that i also veh worried.
haix.
CHEER UP OKAYYS(:
actually i dun wanna deny that
we really drift apart le):
but i really really understand that
your veh busy.
so i dont blame you larhs.
and i really wanna thank you
for always listening to me(:
THANKS!
and im sry if i always ask you abt-.
sry if you find it irritating yea?
anw, I LOVE YOU(:
THANKS GF<333
YOU.it srsly hurts to see you like that lorhs.
i know im in no position to say this.
and i know you will nvr read it.
but i really cant help but feel worried.
and i hate it when you always seem to give me hope,
but aft that, just push me down.
i dun think you will care/ understand how i feel.
but its really bad you know.
i always fall so badly.
maybe i over-analyse stuff sometimes.
i know im just a nobody.
i know you wont even care.
sometimes i will think of forgetting,
but its damn difficult.
i will still think,
i will still care,
i will still be worried.
stop doing this to yourself okayys.
pls.
YOU.(different person)i dont know what i have done
that have made you hate me and us.
i dont know why on earth you did that.
it really hurt.
when i heard about it.
when i heard about what you said.
im scared.
im shocked.
i dont know why.
i hope everything will be over soon.
HOPEFULLY.
and i know i wont get my
dream combination le.
cuz i doubt i will do well.
i didnt finish my maths and science.
and science was KILLER!
maths paper1 also.
haix.
i almost cant finish languages too.
im a failure larhs.
study so hard also nth.
but forget it.
its over.
actually i may be always smiling and all.
but sometimes im really sad larhs.
cuz i always think about alot of stuff.
esp when im alone lorhs.
esp when its late at night,
i go home after any pa event.
although sometimes, i feel like crying.
cuz sometimes there are too much stuff on my mind.
but i know there are ppl out there
who are worse off than me.
so i know i cant cry.
cuz if i cry, then they have to die meh?
cuz mine is like veh minor to them.
so yeah.
rant wan liao.
then everything will be okayys le.
then i will be better.
what i said above were my true feelings.
i still have alot to say.
esp to my other frens.
but really got too much le.
and im really tired.
maybe next time bahhs.
this entry really veh long.
cuz i really think alot on my way home just now.
hehs.
8:25 PM
